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27 November 2006 @ 3pm

Tell Me If I’m Going Crazy…

Somehow, the past is easy. You can look back, see all the things that went wrong, the missteps, the motives behind it.

You lose something when you try to analyze what was. If you tear it apart, trying to get at the meat of what made it so great, you find that it was just lies, convenience, and a willingness to not rock the boat. Suddenly, that which was holy, wonderful, divine, seems cheap, fake.

Unease takes over when you speak of uncertain things. People love to know. They hate the idea that they don’t control things. They want to be the master of their fate, and control the flow of their life.

Fate is hardly that kind.

The best thing you can ever do, is forget. Reminisce about what was, how great it felt, how perfect everything seemed. Enjoy it, and then look to the future. The past is what was, not what will be. People change, coins get flipped (it was tails today), and random events interfere with our best-laid plans.

The best we can hope for is some sort of ability to cope. Hope that we can deal with the knives thrown our way, dodge them, catch them. We stand and say, with confidence, that we love to live on the edge, one random decision away from complete chaos, but no one means it. People want comfort. They want the same.

But nothing is static. It’s all motion, movement, and change. You can react to it, and hope to survive with your head above water for one more day, or you can embrace it. Learn to love the quirks that the next hour, the next day, the next month will bring. Let go of assumptions, of preconceived notions, and of the status quo. Change is the only thing that stays the same.

Embrace the unknown. It brings great joy, and great sorrow, but it is unavoidable. Make peace with its inevitability.